Anxiously awaiting....

So, we went to the states and had a wonderful, wonderful time!! I prayed so hard the night before for everything...our safety, our time together, that God would reconnect us, Rylen and his safety and sleeping (does NOT sleep well away from home) & that we would find great deals while we were there!!
We arrived and came home safely, Rylen had an awesome time and slept ALL night both nights!! And..we found too many good deals:) We did alot of shopping, we ate great, slept well, had fun gambling & reconnected emotionally and that was much needed!!
I had this silly worry that while i was gone Rylen would forget about me, i know..how silly but now that he is getting older i didn't know how he would react. When we came to pick him up he ran to the stairs and he yelled "daddy.." jumped into his arms and then seen me..he threw himself on the floor and started bawling..and whimpered "mommy.." like i wasn't coming back..i cried too:) It was a nice to feeling to be loved and missed that much. He was asking for us on Monday when we got up and continued throughout the day with his famous.."mommy, where are u?"..LOL
We put up his big boy bed and he took to it like a pro..barely fought it..and then set up the crib in the nursery. I LOVE their new rooms!! They are sooo nice:) Rylen loves his new room!!
Now..we are anxiously and excitedly awaiting the arrival of our little girl!! Our home is ready, our hearts have been forever. I am starting to feel a little impatient, but i turn to God on a daily basis and remind myself that when He is ready she will be here!! It will be well worth the wait!!
I feel good...just really excited!! Cant wait to meet u princess:)

A little on the sad side...

So..im having a melt down. Silly i know, but i didnt just want to journal it tonight, i wanted to blog it.
I realize that conception and the birth of your own child is miraculous. A true gift from God, probably one of the best, and i dont take this opportunity for granted, but i find myself so physically done!
I suffered from a severe sinus infection for almost 2 weeks. It was really, really bad for 10 days and then with the assistance of anti-biotics i was over it in 10 days. I felt so gross..i could barely bend over, i couldnt sleep, i barely ate. I got better and thanked God for bringing my health back again. Well..im sick again. This is the weekend we are suppose to go to the states, and as excited as i am to spend some time alone with Ivon there is a part of me that doesnt want to go. Im so tired all the time, exhausted is a better word. I am reminded all the time that its only going to get worse in a few weeks but with Ivon working all night and sleeping all day i feel so alone. Its my fault, having a social life scares me. I can barely do the dishes anymore, i have no desire to clean my house & anyone that knows me knows i am a serious neat freak and i take pride in such a clean house.
I really must seem like i am feeling sorry for myself, i promise im not. I wish i could go to bed, sleep all night and feel like myself again. I am going now to say a little prayer that God will take some of this away and replace it with happiness...

Our getaway....

Ivon and I have decided to head down to the states in the middle of march to do some last minute baby shopping. The baby stuff is reasonably cheaper, and we wanted one last chance to go away before we become a family of four. Exciting right??!! In a sense no. Why?!! God has answered my prayer. In a previous post i had spoken about how mine and rylens bond didn't come naturally, it had to grow. When i became pregnant, we had already decided i would take advantage of the 15 weeks of sick leave before i went on maternity leave. So, that we did. I have worked full time since Rylen was 6 months old and i have never really been a stay-at-home Mom. This has been one of my biggest hearts desires, to form a bond with my child and raise them on my own. These last two months with Rylen have been amazing. Some days, even weeks, have been really rough but for the most part we have had such a great time together. More and more he started to get really attached, running to me instead of Ivon, crying when i left, etc. I didn't realize how much we had bonded until we started planning to go away, who would take care of him, etc. We knew we wanted to go alone, so we needed to arrange child care. I started to panic..."i cant leave him.."...."what if something happens..." etc. Ivon pointed out that something had changed. Its such a beautiful thing to watch God intervene and create a bond between Rylen and I. So now, as we take our little getaway i am praying for peace that everything will be OK...

My little trooper....

This week has been a really rough one. It started last week when i thought i might be coming down with something..just a common cold..but it started getting worse instead of better and thats not normal for me. By monday i was bawling uncontrollably because i was in so much pain. My face hurt, my head was pounding, my teeth were aching. I had a doctors appointment the next morning so i just figured i would wait. So, turns out i have a severe sinus infection. I was prescribed anti-biotics and today i feel SO much better!! I had a root-canal done 2 years ago, and because anti-biotics weaken tooth enamel that part of my mouth is bugging me, but with a little tylenol i can manage. I wasnt the only ill one in the house. Rylen started coming down with something. He also started to get worse, and when he is really sick, he starts to get lethargic, barely speaks, doesnt sleep well, only wants to be held. I do love this time, because i can cuddle him all day and he doesnt move an inch, but at the same time no mother likes to see their child ill. He started running a fever yesterday morning and that is not normal at all for him, and i couldnt bring it down. I asked my mom to come down to help me out (at this point i still wasnt feeling well) and so they drove from winnipeg for the evening. We had supper, and she had also commented on his fever, and we took his temperature and it was high. I waited a little and about an hour later his breathing was becoming labored. We brought him to emergency and were lucky enough to get in right away. His fever still hadnt come down, and we were blessed with AMAZING staff (nurses & doctor) and they checked him out thoroughly. He was whimpering by this time. Turns out he had a bad case of croop (for the 2nd time in his little life) and they had to put a ventilator mask on him to open up his air way. He was trembeling in fear and we couldnt calm him down, but he got through it. They gave him a liquid steroid also for his air way, and some tylenol to bring his fever down. We brought him home and he was ok. But..he didnt have a very good night. I was so exhausted by this point, trying to fight off my own sickness as well..Ivon got up with him at night and was up for most of the night. I feel so blessed to have such a great husband. He takes such pride in his family, and he ALWAYS puts us first.
Rylen was much better today, and were hoping by the end of the week we will all feel better:)