Reflection. Praise. Celebration.

So our vacation has come and gone but every moment was amazing. God tagged along and joined us, blessing us with beautiful weather, awesome conversation, a time to reflect and praise him and to celebrate our marriage! We had a great time..it was perfect, there was nothing we would have changed. Everytime i think of this vacation it will bring a smile to my face :)

The growth. The love. The blessing.

So, our baby is almost 4 months old. How time flies. It feels like yesterday i gave birth to her and seen her beautiful face for the first time. Things have changed so much, she is a full time smiler, she has discovered her hands and how to bring them to her mouth (after going cross eyed a few times) and just recently she has discovered her voice and loves to tell me lots of stories in between smiles and coos :) She is still waking up a night but the colic has left our house (thank the Lord) and she is so different.
I am completely wrapped up in my childrens love. I still do have the desire to go to work (part-time) and we have decided i will after christmas, but i do enjoy being the domesticated house-wife, mother, etc. But....my husband makes things so much easier for me to enjoy my title. He takes night shift, he is so hands on with both of babies, he is so confident as a parent and to be honest its something i am a little envious of. I am not. I know i am capable of taking care of them but i am incredibly intimidated to be a parent. God and I are working on this issue together but its certainly not happening over night.
Rylen is starting to talk in sentences now and put words together. Its hilarious to watch him master this and its so normal to us. I laugh out loud everyday at something funny he has said.
He loves his baby sister so much and he is very protective of her, i am so blessed that he isnt jealous at all. He knows that he is very loved and that is definetly my baby boy (secretly i would love to have another boy ♥ ) .
I still look at both of them and cant beleive their ours :)

A new journey....

So i have decided to kick it into high gear and finally start getting serious about weightloss. After working full time in the weight loss industry i just wanted a break from the consumption it was bringing to my life and causing me so much grief in general.
So..it began last week and im already down 5 lbs! Im stubborn..really really stubborn so i can do a great job at saying no to things i know i shouldnt have. Im human and i will fail but i know how great i feel at my goal weight, how much sexier i feel for my husband..how much better i am for my kids. Its amazing how it affects ur entire life!
After Mataiya was born i was EXTREMELY exhausted..i know to most moms with a new born this is a very normal side affect, so at first i just brushed it off and chalked it up to her birth. And then, it was increasingly getting worse and starting to worry me. This was after 6-8 hours of straight sleep (ivon takes the night shift) and 2 naps during the day i was STILL dragging my feet and i could never get enough rest. Now i am thinking maybe i have cancer, maybe i have a severe infection my body is trying to fight, maybe i am pregnant again, i couldnt figure it out. Well...i have cut out most starches from diet (breads, pasta, cereal, etc.) and i feel 100 x better. I can get up early in the morning and last till evening. Some days i could go for a nap (what mom doesnt enjoy a mid afternoon nap) but for the most part i feel not too bad. So, i will probably always try to avoid them and stick to other sources for my carbs (fruit n veggies)!
I am excited about all of this...and i am excited about the reward..when i get to my goal weight (which is 20lbs away) i have to rubber bins FULL of clothes to wear AND my husband has promised me a little shopping trip followed by dinner at moxies..cant wait :)