Happy Anniversary!!

Well..its been a year...since i married my best friend!! I know it sounds totally cheesy but its so true..he really is my best friend. I love that he is always my soft spot to land when i cant seem to do things on my own. He is wonderful. Amazing actually, and sometimes i find myself taking him and my marriage for granted. I am happy. I love that i can always count on him and find the best in myself when i don't feel strong enough to believe in myself.

Marriage is such a blessing, and i feel blessed to be Ivons wife and the mother of his children. I scare myself so much when i think about the terrible thought "what if something happened to him." I know it could, but i hate thinking of it and i have to stop myself from worrying about it.

What a year its been, one baby later and having moved 3 times i finally feel settled in my life. I feel content, and Ive been waiting years to feel this way. Its been alot of hard work, but God has guided us and He has made all things possible

As i reflected on our past year i thought it would be fun to re-read our wedding vows:

"I take you to be my husband, loving you now and as you grow and develop into all that God intends. I will love you when we are together and when we are apart; when our lives are at peace and when they are in turmoil; when I am proud of you and when I am disappointed in you; in times of rest and in times of work. I will honor your goals and dreams and help you to fulfill them. From the depth of my being, I will seek to be open and honest with you. I say these things believing that God is in the midst of them all. "

Its been a while

I figured its been too long since i last blogged so it was time to spill my heart :)

Well..our baby girl is almost 2 months old and wow what a change its been . Knock on wood she has been sleeping a little longer and grumpy a little less. It makes the transition easier. I am still healing and still so very tired but i am having such a great time watching my children grow. Rylen has taken everything so well. We recently moved as well so he has had a lot of change in his little life and all things considered he is doing such a great job at taking it all in stride.

There are times i do miss just me and Rylen and after humbling myself enough to express it to Ivon we have agreed that there is going to be some time set aside where Ivon will take Mataiya so Rylen and I can share some time alone. I realized that after me feeling this way i am sure Rylen is feeling the very same way so we needed to do something about it. So, tomorrow morning Ivon has appointement in Winnipeg so Rylen and i are going to stay behind and enjoy the morning together.

Mataiya has just started to smile and it makes all those times that arent so fun so very much worth the frustration. She has the most adorable dimple and i try to capture this grin on camera but of course its our little secret for now and she isnt about to share it through a "kodak moment."

Ivon and I have being doing great..its wonderful being married to ur best friend so you can confide in them with all things. Truth is i am very self-concious as a mother and lack alot of confidence in my parenting so he is always there for me and thats such a great feeling..between him and God ive got it made and i manage to get through everything quite well. We have been starting to set alot of goals now that were settled into our new place and Mataiya isnt such a newborn and its so exciting to dream about our future and focus on our goals.

So..all in all things are well..i wouldnt trade any of it in and i would do it all over again if i had too. God is good and he reminds me of this everyday when i see my children smile ♥