Seeking God...

Today i am officially 2 days over-due. However..i can see that there is an end in sight! Yesterday i went to the doctor and got a lovely internal done :) I am between 1-2 cm dialated, my cervix is getting really soft and baby is engaged! These are all wonderful signs that my body is doing things on its own..praise God!
Yesterday he also did a "membrane sweep "...so far nothing has come of it, but they say that it could take two days before something happens. Apparently Im getting really good at this whole 'waiting thing'..lol
I have another appointment Monday morning, if baby hasnt made her way into the world by then my doctor is going to schedule an induction for next week. I am trying to let my vision go of things happening on their own because i dont want to be dissapointed. God could very well bring our baby to us through induction and i am coming to terms with it. I still am praying that i will get to experience a drug-free birth that happens on its own timing, but i have no control over this.
Ever since Sunday we have received numerous calls & text messsages asking if baby has been born, and yes sometimes its slightly annoying but i took a step back yesterday and realized that God has blessed us with so many amazing people in our lives who are just as excited as we are to welcome this child. Its so wonderful to have such great support and positive encouragment.
My mom has truly been a God sent, i dont think there are words to thank her enough for all that she has done, ecspecially these last two weeks. I want so badly to thank her but words arent enough and no material gift would ever be good enough.
Thank u to amazing friends and amazing mom!!

A little update...

I figured i would just write a general update on how things are going since last week.
I struggled alot this week with patience and strenghth..i prayed so many times this week that God would continue to give me patience and that this time of waiting wouldnt consume me. So many wonderful things happened this week. Monday, my parents decided to come out and spend the week. What a blessing that was!!!! My mom is such a great distraction technique:) We did alot of shopping and running around. She came with me to my doctors appointment on Tuesday. My doctor said that everything looks good. That i am now full-term and baby should be just fine if she was born now. If this baby doesnt come by next Tuesday he is going to sweep my membranes (YAY)..if that doesnt get things going and if i havent gone into labor on my own after that then he is going to induce the following week. Induction scares me, i was induced with Rylen and it was a TERRIBLE experience!! So, another thing i have added to my prayer list.
Wednesday i went to see the chiropractor and he gave me great releif for my back!!! Ahhh....
Today, Ivon and I went to meet with our pastor (still doing our premarital classes..lol) and instead of doing a session with us he did something a little different. He anointed me with oil and prayed over me and baby. It was soooo beautiful!! I feel so at peace and spiritually i feel ready as well. He prayed that i would find patience and trust God for His timing!! I finally dont feel agitated with the whole situation. So..this week has been good. Another great thing..this will be Ivons last night on Midnights and he goes back to his regular shift on Monday!! Im looking forward to spending the weekend with him..and the only thing we plan on doing is relaxing and cleaning the house!!
Thank u for your prayers:) God answered so many of them this week!!
Praise God!!

Impatient Tears.....

I cant honestly tell you how many times i have cried this week. Due to frustration, and impatience. I promised myself that i would stop complaining so much about my pregnancy, ecspecially now that its going to be drawing to a close in the near future. Its so hard not to though, its just like planning your wedding or any other major life change, it unconciously consumes your life and all that goes with it. I cant sleep properly anymore, my back, my thighs and hips hurt so bad that i am taking 2 x extra strength tylenol just to get through the day (i do this twice a day). Rylen cant sit in my lap anymore..well sometimes he does but with great diffuculty.
This morning i broke down...I cried so hard in ivons arms because i feel like one more day of feeling like this i am going to loose it. I hate feeling tired and miserable all the time. I must pray about 5 or 6 times a day that God will give me patience, turn my grouchiness into joy and allow me to enjoy these last few weeks with her moving inside my tummy. A feeling i longed to have and never thought i would experience. I am being taught so much.. patience, to be thankful for what i do have, and that if God truly didnt think i could handle this, that He never would have blessed me with our children. Its so silly that i feel this way with only 9 days left to go before her due date and it should be so easy to see that light at the end of the tunnel..but im not seeing it. I beleive that in some ways Satan is trying to take this from me, and as much as i turn to God i dont think i am turning to Him as often as i should be.
So..if u have a minute, please pray for me. I would appreciate that very much:)

24 Days to go...

So..last Sunday i went into labor!! We came home from my parents (we go there every Sunday) & we put Rylen to bed..popped some popcorn and pulled out a board game. We do that almost every weekend too...its our time together away from TV and time for us to connect and laugh..its brought us closer together. Anyway..i started getting "gas-like" cramps. I went to the bathroom and they started getting worse. We were halfway into the game and Ivon was talking to me and i couldnt even hear him i was in so much pain. I was starring at him with a blank look on my face. Quite funny actually. I told him how i was feeling..he set me up on the couch with a hotwater bottle and a pillow and nothing was helping. It was then that i thought "Am i in labor?"...I got up off the couch went and layed in bed and it got worse. Ivon ran a shower for me and came in with me. He started to time them..they were 5 mins apart lasting 50-60 seconds long. He said "babe..thats not gas..your in labor." I started laughing just like u did:) So..i started breathing through them and relaxing and the shower did WONDERS!! So he called his mom..he frantically ran around packing a bag just in case, and his mom was here within minutes. They were intense by the time i left. So, we get there. They do a "non stress test" and they start to ease up. I felt embarassed..thinking i was FOR SURE in labor. I guess i started to get my hopes up too.
They were still there..but really far apart. They had me do a urine sample and said "maybe its a urinary tract infection." I was like "What? No..im in labor!"..so they checked me..i hadnt dialated by cervix had softened alot. The test came back positive for a really bad bladder indfection. Hmmm...not at all what i was expecting. What happened was the bladder infection never showed any signs other than back pain, and in pregnancy ecspecially at the end u have a really sore back. There was no burning, no cramps, nothing. So..it caused my uterus to contract..it did put me into labor but it stopped itself. Weird. So, im on round 2 of anti-biotics..feeling much better. And, now we have 24 days to go until due date. Ill be honest and a little hopeful i think it will be earlier than that, but God will bring her when she is ready. His timing is always perfect. In the meantime i am praying for patience..i have felt so anxious and impatient and sooooo excited to meet her its gotten the best of me! But..24 days isnt that long!!