I cant honestly tell you how many times i have cried this week. Due to frustration, and impatience. I promised myself that i would stop complaining so much about my pregnancy, ecspecially now that its going to be drawing to a close in the near future. Its so hard not to though, its just like planning your wedding or any other major life change, it unconciously consumes your life and all that goes with it. I cant sleep properly anymore, my back, my thighs and hips hurt so bad that i am taking 2 x extra strength tylenol just to get through the day (i do this twice a day). Rylen cant sit in my lap anymore..well sometimes he does but with great diffuculty.
This morning i broke down...I cried so hard in ivons arms because i feel like one more day of feeling like this i am going to loose it. I hate feeling tired and miserable all the time. I must pray about 5 or 6 times a day that God will give me patience, turn my grouchiness into joy and allow me to enjoy these last few weeks with her moving inside my tummy. A feeling i longed to have and never thought i would experience. I am being taught so much.. patience, to be thankful for what i do have, and that if God truly didnt think i could handle this, that He never would have blessed me with our children. Its so silly that i feel this way with only 9 days left to go before her due date and it should be so easy to see that light at the end of the tunnel..but im not seeing it. I beleive that in some ways Satan is trying to take this from me, and as much as i turn to God i dont think i am turning to Him as often as i should be.
So..if u have a minute, please pray for me. I would appreciate that very much:)
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Hey Sweetheart, you are such an amazing woman and everything you do and say you always are such an inpiration to me.
ReplyDeleteI want to tell you something that made so much sense to me when I was praying to God for things .... if we pray for patience, is God going to give us patience or an opportunity to be patient? Looks like God is giving you your opportunity :)
I love you hun, hang in there shes' coming soon :)
Those last few weeks/days can be brutal!! You're so ready to be DONE with the pregnancy and just want that sweet baby of yours in you arms and not your belly!! I know it feels like forever away, but soon enough your day will come!
ReplyDeleteI'll keep you in my prayers!