Our God is an awesome God!

I feel blessed today, and felt as though i should share it. I sometimes stop and take a real look at my life and realize how amazing God is. Its so easy to take Him and His love for granted, and then in times of pain to run and He is always there, but then in times of joy we seem to forget. Atleast i do anyway. I am trying to work on running to Him with every detail of my life, and slowly its beginning to get better.

I was married once before, do i regret it? Not at all. I feel like at that time in my life it was meant to be, and that it was going to last. It wasnt until i realized that we both weren't ourselves with eachother anymore. There is more to this story of course, a little too personal to share, but I left. It was the hardest thing i have ever had to do in my life, but since when is standing up for yourself easy? He was a great man, but not a great man for me.

I lost myself, dated someone who completely took all my dignity away, and all that i had become. I was vulnerable and allowed him to control my life, but constantly God kept sending in people to disengage this relationship and i was too proud to walk away. Eventually, he left. I suffered through pain, allowing myself to believe i was "in love" with him. And then God added to this story and.....a long came Ivon.

Ivon and I went to the same school together. We shared some mutual friends but there was never anything there except a little "hello." I never thought twice about dating him or even being friends. Not that i didnt like him but he was a little older than me and at the time i had a friend who was interested in him.

We met again years later, shortly after i had my heart broken and i remember that night like it was yesterday and constantly reminisce about it. God became real for the first time in my life. We were at the K.R. Barkman park, talking with a mutual friend. I was so broken, and in so much pain, and as i talked and listened, and cried shamefully, I was sitting on the picnic table and God said "he is the one." and i was so confused..and aked Him.."what do you mean, i dont understand?" Clearly and without hesitation He said, "He is the one i have chosen for you." Wow...powerful!! I just had my heartbroken and God is here to tell me this! I was excited to hear it but in too much pain to respond. It started off with a friendship, and then we dated, shortly there after we were engaged, and 2 years and 1 beautiful child later we were married.

Our wedding pictures were taken in that same park, and its so wonderful to have heard God say that that night because everytime i feel as if i want to give up or become frustrated in my marriage i am reminded of that night and God's clear words. "He is the one i have chosen for you." and that is more than enough to keep me going, that God was in the midst of our love story:)