Trying to embrace the blessing

I am 29 weeks along and i am finding myself getting somewhat impatient. I am very excited to meet our daughter and complete our family, i think this will be it for having children.

I have been so exhausted these last two weeks that i can barely make it through the day. I am so thankful and so blessed to have such an amazing husband. I want to do everything on my own, and most of the time im too proud to ask for help. I dont want him to see me as a failure. I know in my heart he wont but that is the issue i need to overcome.

I started getting anxiety attacks again. The same thing i had with Rylen, but thankfully these came later and i can sense them coming on. There isnt anything that i can do to prevent them, but as far as treatment goes i am going to ask my doctor tomorrow if he subscribe me a mild dose of medication for them.

Pregnancy is hard on me, physically and emotionally. I feel as though i sound so ungrateful, but that is the furtherst thing i am trying to get across. I am so very, very grateful, and i do try everything to embrace this season of my life but it doesnt come easy. I wonder sometimes if this is satans hold on me, to prevent me from enjoying this time in my life. I know its almost nearing the end, only 11 more weeks until we get to meet our baby girl! That keeps me motivated!!!

I often find myself in her nursery, just adoring her tiny little clothes and the car seat waiting to take her home in! We are starting on her nursery next week. I have so much heart and soul i want to put in there, and i know that if i continue to focus on that as my project it will go by faster!

I am asking for prayer, as a woman and a mother, to help me be patient and to accept and embrace this time in my life with joy and patience.